Reverie and then a sudden change of light.

It’s quite an unusual feeling when your sitting blissfully in a state of reverie and suddenly something just changes.

Reverie is transient and so bittersweet.

I keep noticing far to much lately the irksome moments that pull me from my state of reverie. I will be sitting in class, just mindlessly learning and then a change of light happens.

The mood will change. The room will feel darker and less idyllic. Just because of a sudden change in light.

Just because the blinds have moved slightly because of the wind, or a clouds covered the sun.

Nobody says anything or acts differently.

The light has just change and the calming moods just gone.

Everything feels wrong and disorderly.

The light from outside will cast shadows on someones face or a surface differently. It makes me feel uncomfortable because I felt so relaxed previously.

I’m deceived into thinking its a change in person or moment. It isn’t …it’s just how the light has changed.

I am left wondering and anticipating if the moment will change. Does anyone else notice the change of mood. Will it effect others as much as it is effecting me?

Will anything happen differently than it would of happened seconds before the light changed?

 

Has anyone ever felt anything like this?

It’s weird to think something as small as a change in light can effect my brain so much. 😀  ❤

I honestly have no idea what this is. A thought?  A rambling feeling?  A story?

I don’t know but I wrote something because what else have I to do right now.

 

 

 

Barcelona Adventures #3 :)

Cringe worthy photo of me ..I know but hey I couldn’t resist! 🙂

We woke up again bright and early at 6am and got to see the sunrise. This time we needed all three of us in the room to set an alarm….the tiredness was kicking in. We all got up and got ready for the day ahead. The day we were all most excited for.

I sang songs in the room to wake up the girls a bit more (also to annoy them but pshh, my singing is the best….kidding..I can’t hold a note.) 🙂 . I’m sure they loved my impromptu made up Spanish verses in high school musical songs (My best ‘Spanish’ line being Ola poopoolala) We laughed a lot at my great songs and my made up lyrics then We ate breakfast. But nowhere near as much breakfast was eaten compared to the other days because none of us wanted to see it return after going on a roller-coaster.

We met our new tour guide Daniel. Daniel was just as lovely as Juan and he had the most contagious and unique laugh. We all waited in the lobby area until everyone was ready and then set off in the bus to Portaventura.

We could see the biggest roller coasters from at least a 10 minute away drive!! 😀

We got there and everyone got their tickets and we were all nervous and excited at the same time. We spent the entire day there until 5 and we had a lot of time and we got to go on a lot of roller coasters and rides.

We all just split up into sub groups around the park. I stayed with 3 friends and we had so much fun. We first went off and of course got on the biggest roller-coaster first…The shambala. Smart megan the first roller coaster you’ve ever been on is the biggest one in Europe.

We didn’t even have to line up long and we were on it on no time…partially regretting the choice. We climbed up the rails slowly, hearing the creaks of the bars and the wind blowing gently in our faces. ( I was still surprisingly calm and their was very little wind) The view was amazing you could see miles around all at the same time being sort of scared for the drop ahead . Then suddenly the drop happens and we scream with glee all the way down. It was actually so fun, not bad at all. It didn’t make us feel sick at all, our stomachs didn’t even lift. The rest of the ride was fun my favourite part was the twist at the end. We got off and we were full of pride and smiles.(We did it! I conquered my first ever roller-coaster! 🙂 )

We went back to our other friends and walked around the parks and got on more rides. We next got on the teacups which was by far my favourite ride. My friend made them spin so fast it made us dizzy and ill slightly…who would’ve thought the teacups would be my Favourite ride of all of them. (Not even kidding, It was the best one we went on and made me feel the most sickly :’) We laughed so much on them.

We then went around to each different park from china all the way to mexico and to the wild west. Getting on so many different rides. The El Diablo, Stampida, Carousel, Water rafts and lots more. They were all so much fun and none made us sick. Even after we stopped for cotton candy, icecream, hotdogs and chicken popcorn , We still went on the rides and were fine. We got to experience so much of the parks and had a lot of laughs and breaks along the way. The El diablo was a ride I simply had to go on. I say Diablo way to much just to annoy people and I needed to go on the ride…I loved that ride. It was my favourite roller-coaster of all.

We then looked in gift shops and relaxed in the sun at the meetup point and waited for the others. Daniel was the first back after us so he just sat and talked to us about the roller coasters and stuff he went on and we went on. The biggest roller-coaster got stuck up top for five minutes with people on it! Thank goodness none of us were on it at the time. The park was really beautiful and I got to take some photos, some wont be on my blog but might go onto my instagram 😉

Then eventually everyone else came back and we eventually got the bus to a shopping centre where we were going for bowling and dinner. We got time to shop around for a bit while we waited for the buffet to open. (Make-up shops again with the girls )Then we went in for food. It was the best meal I have ever had…in my entire life…no exaggeration!. There was so much food on offer like almost anything you can think of eg: rice,pasta,pizza,chips,lasagne,chicken nuggets,fillets,sushi,wings and loads more. It was delicious. I was in my element …food heaven. We all sat down and ate.

Daniel sat at the same table as us and talked to us. We taught him some new Irish slang and he spoke in Spanish for us. He was super nice and easy to talk to. Everyone of us loved him and got along with him. He also has a blog called caviarcitric (check it and use English translations!) . We then got dessert. Well most of us…Daniel didn’t he got pizza instead which was also yum. The ice cream was so good we made it ourselves and then choose so many toppings. (I was happy out with all the toppings) We all left with exploding stomachs. 

We then went downstairs to a arcade/bowling alley. We got to bowl for a while. I failed miserably at bowling but it was fun. I managed to get one strike but in the process almost dropped a bowling ball on my foot..thankfully I just stubbed it off the bowling ball rack thing. Daniel was my friends good luck charm, he made her get such good bowls when he was watching but when he wasn’t she didn’t do as well. We laughed alot about that. There was also a worker their and his name was nacho I think?…like what a cool name!!!. Our shoes and clothes..anything that was white glowed it was so cool. We then all got the bus home , sleepy and happy. We then showered,chatted etc then slept…What a great day!:)

Portaventura is so cool! I am definitely going to go back one day. 😀

Have you ever gone? Do you like roller-coasters? 😀 ❤

Heres some other photos from around the parks and I one from the hotel.

Barcelona Adventures #2 :)

We woke up at 6am and got ready bright and early. We had enough time to watch the sunrise and get our hair and makeup done. The view from our window was beautiful to watch the sun rise and set each day. We were surprisingly not grumpy even though we didn’t get too much sleep.

We then all went down for breakfast at 8am. It was a great selection of food from cereal, yoghurt’s, rashers, egg, sausage, rolls to fruits and cakes. It was filling and  delicious (I was in breakfast heaven <3)  it was our main motivator to get ready quicker in the morning.

We then played pool (I suck at pool…Juan tried to show us how to play better but we still failed), table tennis etc while we waited for teachers and everyone to be ready. I also almost got my hand crushed under a pool table -.- but thankfully just got them slightly squished but it still hurt like crap.

  We were meant to get the metro but it was lashing rain. Despite the rain some girls still wore shorts (thankfully I didn’t ,I would of died). Juan got us a bus as a treat just for the way up to the Sagrada Familia ( thank you so much!) We were saved from being completely drenched. We then all ran in the rain to get in but we had to wait in the rain while we got our tickets and bags searched. We did get soaked but not as much as we would of been if we didn’t get the bus. We tried to huddle under a shelter but the it didn’t exactly do much because it was just planks of wood with gaps. All our hoodies got drenched and we had to carry around the wet hoodies inside the building and on the tour.

The Church was amazing. It had such beautiful architecture and it was so detailed. The tour was interesting we had each a headset and an Ipad between three.  We first got introduced in a small room and watched a video of how the building is meant to look when finished. We walked around the museum and the main building and outside and got to do games on the Ipad and watched videos. We sadly were there during a rainy day so we only got to see the lights shine through the windows which made it green but in sunny days and evenings it shines red. The guide was lovely and she talked about Irish movies she liked and asked us about Ireland. We then gave back our headsets and went back to the bus and got dropped off at the metro station.

We then went shopping for a couple of hours in las arenas shopping centre and got some lunch and food to take home to the rooms. We shopped for ages and got new clothes in penneys because the ones we had were soaked from earlier we then finally got tired and sat next to a overpriced icecream stall and chatted with friends. We went back to the accommodation charged up our phones and then  we went back  in town and got some dinner at lovely chinese buffet called Dimsum we had so much food their. The food was delicious I got sushi,prawns,garlic potatoes,chicken and beef chow mein and rice. Then for dessert I got a real watermelon along with sugary watermelon sweets. (Can you tell I love my food) 🙂

We had time to walk around for awhile then took the metro to the Magic Fountain. We spent a couple of hours their and we watched breakdancers and got to walk down and look at the smaller fountains which were beautiful then got to see the magic fountain where a 15min show was on loop the colours were beautiful and their was so many tourists there and people selling stuff. It was a lovely atmosphere and the weather picked up quite a bit. We then got the metro home it was quite a long metro journey to the university from the fountain but it was made fun (We got off at mundet I think it was). Oh and their was also really cool vending machines near the metro it was massive the size of a wall with doughnuts, lighters and so much more random stuff in it. I was pretty disappointed I didn’t get anything from it because I was to paranoid to take out my purse.

Juan took selfies and made us laugh on the way up and on the way back on the metro he beat my highscore on piano tiles by miles and I got pretty competitive trying to beat him again…I still haven’t. We got back and said goodbye and thanks to Juan for being such a wonderful guide (Our Juan and only Juan)…it was his last day guiding us he had other stuff to do back home. Then all went to our rooms and messed around,got showered and chatted for hours until we fell asleep. 

 

The Sagrada Familia is taking longer to build than the great ancient pyramids and Gaudi was not the original architect of the Sagrada Familia , Paula del Villar first began its works.

Barcelona had a great metro system but they have 12 ones that have been abandoned over the years and they are said to be haunted…So if I ever go back I need to go see these places if possible! 😀 ❤

What would you most like to do if you went to Barcelona?:)

Barcelona Adventures #1 :)

We set off early at 2.30am from the school. We got a bus to Dublin airport. Everyone was surprisingly cheery and happy despite it being so early. We were all excited for the trip even the teachers were happy and awake. 🙂 Everyone chatted and listened to music all they way up. The Bluetooth speaker one of the lads brought was great fun for the trip it made all  bus journeys bearable, blasting good music for the entire trip…Thankfully rock me mama like a wagon wheel was not played on this trip.(I have grown to hate that song thanks to it being played on every trip so far this year) :’)

We drove to the airport and said thanks to the bus driver.  We all had our e11 cards and passports in hand ready to check in. We wheeled our suitcases carry ons around with us and made final checks to make sure our liquids and medicines were in clear bags. (Silly me left them at the bottom of my suitcase in the bag) The teachers all handed out our boarding passes and we got to see where we all were sitting. I got a window seat 26 F .  I switched seats twice like a lot of the class so we could all sit nearer to our friends. I sat with my two friends who were also slightly scared of flying like me. So yay three girls afraid of flying their to support one another. We were flying with Ryan air If only there was more leg room but a well. The flight wasn’t too long but it did get delayed for 45 minutes and we had to sit in our seats for ages before we actually had the chance to take off. During the flight the girls slept but I couldn’t I was far to excited so I listening to music and stared out the window the entire time. I managed to get no anxiety on the plane up and I didn’t even feel sick. I loved looking out at the clouds it was really pretty looking out onto them it was like looking at marshmallows. I loved making shapes out of them some looked like faces. We all helped each other stay calm through the flight and distracted each other during turbulence. I drew a bus for my friend so she could stare at it as a distraction during turbulent parts. We laughed to much at my fabulous art skills. (Their was also an incident where I struggled to make my way out of the window seat in attempts to get to the bathroom. My poor friends got squished 😀 …. Sorry girls )

Once we landed we all took our bags and got off the plane. We met our tour guide Juan. He was extremely lovely and we got along with him so well. He was funny as heck and everyone adored him. We got the bus to the University we stayed at and all got separated into our rooms. We had time to charge up our phones and change before we headed out for our first activity. We went to Olympic Port first. It was such a nice beach. The sun was blazing down on us and I really regretted not changing in to shorts. We got our first lunch their. McDonald’s of course because that’s where everyone goes when you’re in a foreign country (Kidding, We just were so hungry and It was the cheapest and quickest option) We sat outside and ate and then went and sat on the beach and took in the sun. Goodbye Irish cold and Hello Spanish warmth. We walked around in the sun and got snacks and played volleyball on the beach. We watched the tide rush in and back and I ran in and out away from the tide like a four year old despite the sea being pretty dang cold.(Again wearing leggings not shorts…smart megan..very smart)

We then all met back up at the bus and set off for our second activity we went to Camp Nou. The guys were extremely happy and some of the girls. It was surprisingly interesting and cool even for me and I am the furthest person from a sports fan. The stadium was massive and it was packed with people. We eventually got struck with jet-lag and sat and guzzled water in the sun outside for awhile until it was time to meetup again at the bus.

We then all went out for dinner (After a couple of people being late back to the bus, but let’s not get into that :’) ). The first dinner of the trip together. We went to a buffet restaurant called fresco. It had loads of different types of pastas and pizza and veggies and stuff like that. Their was a great selection. I got pasta but silly me didn’t like the sauce on it and it upset my stomach a bit but I didn’t mind I still went out and shopped after with the girls. We went around the entire shopping centre and got random little gifts for friends and family and stuff for ourselves. We bought yet again more water. We drank so much water on the trip we would be human water balloons if possible. We got sweets to bring back to the hotel from a sweet shop and then got the bus home.  While we spent our time in sweet shops some of the guys on the trip got to meet Ant and Dec! They took a selfie with him and all. We laughed and I got to take some photos and talk to some random strangers in shops. Spanish and Catalan is such a cool language. It’s so fast and interesting. I tried to pick up some little words.( Not sure if I remembered them from Dora or picked them up their but nonetheless is Spanish )  🙂

We then all got pretty tired and headed back to hotel after a nice day of catching sun and having fun. I managed to get sunburnt on my shoulders (not too bad though but seriously…it’s so obvious I’m Irish) We all went to our rooms after getting water and some snacks from the vending machines. We all got the wifi codes and caught up on social medias and all being the typical teenagers we are. We chatted until early mornings and went in and out to each others rooms. Then slept for the next day….well slept after continuous hours of giggles and a flooding incident due to me in the shower. 

That was a day one diary of Barca ❤

Lots of fun and memories made:)

I also learnt  that the FC Barcelona museum is the most popular visited museum in Barcelona it attracts thousands of tourists and football fans worldwide each year. That’s pretty interesting! and that their beaches are artificial but are still lovely and beautiful.

Have you ever been to barcelona? What is your fav thing about travelling?

 

 

Barcelona Gave Me A Travel Bug…Again.

I have caught the travel bug again. I seem to catch it every time I travel and explore some were new. Whenever I leave the country or even visit some were new inside Ireland I seem to catch this virus.

The travel bug is  not a bag bug. In face  this is actually a good virus. It is extremely contagious and is caught very easily. Anyone can catch it at any time. It is usually caught by people with an extreme love for adventure and exploring (like myself). It’s basically wanderlust but stronger.

Symptoms include:

1) Frantically researching where your going to travel next.

2) Imagining all the other things you could do in the place you just visited.

3) Planning and pricing your next getaway despite your major lack of funds.

4) Staring at world maps for hours lost in a daydream of future travels.

and many more.

Barcelona was such a good trip. I must admit I preferred my school trip to Berlin last year more. Only because I am the type of person who would much rather spend hours walking around a city until their feet ached, taking photos and exploring and learning about the culture and it’s history over chilling in the sun, on a beach and  shopping.

I just came home on Monday night around 3am. I left the Wednesday night at 2.30am. We spent 3 nights and 4 days their and it was so much fun. I got to spend it with lovely people and I got to see the sun for a change. I was so used to Irish weather and it’s rain all the time that I managed to get sunburnt on my shoulders the first day and on my nose and face the last. The worst part of my sun burn was my chest on the last day it was shaped like a whale which was pretty embarrassing. I had a very minor sunburn thankfully because it really wasn’t that hot for over there. I am just your average Irish milk bottle teen who would get sunburnt turning on a lamp.

We did quite a lot of things during the time we had. We stayed at the Agora university and I shared a room with two of my friends. The room was quite lovely. It had a fan which we could control thankfully because otherwise we would of died with the heat. We had a quite comfortable bed with light sheets and a big bathroom and a amazing shower with frigging amazing water pressure.( I stood in the shower for ages each night it was just that amazing) Also our view outside was pretty great. We could see apartments that were jutting out over one another and a skyline of buildings and mountains in the distance. It was the perfect to wake up to to watch the sun set each morning.

So yeah. That’s part of the reason why I have gotten a travel bug. I’m going to write more about the school trip to Barca in other blog posts probably. Maybe a day by day post of what we did. I just wanted to write this for now to share my current update on my travel bug.

I really want to go back or travel somewhere new. There is so much to see and I want to see it all. I got a map in the airport that lets me scratch out what places I have been in the world so far and I adore it. I so far have only Ireland scratched out, Germany and Italy. I need to scratch out some more. First I need to travel more.

The map has some cities in the places I already scratched out visible now so that means I need to go there 😉 Munich, Milan, Bilbao, Madrid and Seville are now on my must travel list because hey! They were scratched out when I marked off some of the country’s I already went to so they need to be travelled too now.

Oh and I managed to keep my anxiety at bay really well. Even on the plane!!!!!. The last plane ride I went on with the school didn’t go down to well but this time I managed to be able to sit with my two friends up and back because we all swapped around seats and I got a window seat so Views yay!.

 

Are you the type of person who gets the travel bug easily.?

Where would you like to go or travel to ?

Any tips to save to cure my wanderlust? 🙂 🙂 🙂

 

 

 

New but not so new.

A thrilling Vacuum noise whirred in Violets ears and suddenly she was sucked in by a huge tornado like wind. The room was spinning and the flyers from the walls were shooting around the room like the golden snitch in a game of quidditch Violet was abruptly pulled shoulders first by an invisible wind in through the glistening dance hall mirror.

She looked around her new surroundings. She was was dazed and confused. It was completely crazy it still looked like an ordinary world. It looked like she was still in the town dance hall, where she was practising for her dance audition to get into Lockthorn Dance Academy.

The only difference was that this new world she had seemed to enter had a different colour scheme. The bright colours of the dance hall stage and lights were overly vibrant and colourful. It hurt her eyes to focus on one bright thing for too long. Then there was the dark shadows in the corner of the room and in the shade. The shaded places in the everyday world seemed way darker. They seemed to be more eerie and ominous. It felt like it was a darkness you would find yourself getting lost in and attached to if you stayed in the shadows for too long. She pressed at the mirror. Trying to feel a way back through. No chance. It was solid. She was stuck here, but was that necessarily a bad thing?.

A couple of minutes passed as she stood taking in her surroundings. She felt oddly intrigued and extremely curious about this new, yet not so new world.  She was completely fine with being ripped apart from her real world. This new world gave her some hope for adventure and fulfilment. She thought maybe, just maybe this could be her chance to get away from the crumbling world she has to call a reality. Where amidst all the troubles she had back there  juggling between family problems, friend problems, relationship troubles and just general life struggles. She was now here. In a different world. Sort of like an alternate reality. Away from it all.

She finally had enough of looking around just the dance hall, she decided to take a stroll to familiar place. Home. Was it really still her home? Could it be her new home?. In this world It might even be inhabited by aliens, life size troll dolls or absolutely anything. After all she did get sucked up through a mirror like a piece of apple pie on her grandma’s kitchen floor. So pretty much anything could be possible at this rate she thought.

She took the same route as she usually would to her house through the joggers green. It was a huge stretch of field that led right up to the back of her house. It was called joggers green because it was always full of people jogging. Never sprinting or walking just people jogging around in the mornings and evenings to get some daily exercise. Back home she used to be the only one who walked in it, only because she only passed through get to her house and boy did she get some looks.

It was different in this world. Violet was not the only one walking. There was so many people walking…well more like hopping merrily along their way with creepy, cheery grins spreading across their face. The grass was more green than ever. It was fresher and healthier than usual. Everything and everyone seemed more merry. It felt nice for a change to see people being so happy. It was a refreshing feeling walking through the green for a change. Usually she would walk feeling dragged down by anchor of worry but today was different.

She then noticed the people walking around the further edges of the green. The parts that were shaded by the towering oak trees. The shaded area of the green that caught her attention snapped her out of the bubble of happiness she was in and gave her an uneasy feeling that made her gut clench. Violet watched the people in the shade. They were dragging their feet along in a slow tortoise pace. They walked heads hung low, like a crowd of frowning drones. She picked up her pace to a speed walk. The people around her still smiley and happy no longer kept her attention. She continuously stared at the edges of frowning drones along the sides  of the green. She reached her house and shook her gaze from the dullness that had captivated her.

She felt uneasy but part of her wondered if it was because of the people in the shade seeming so down, where they making her worry that this world wasn’t as good as it seemed to be or could it be how overly happy the people seemed in the light. She always wondered was it possible to find complete happiness and was it possible to be able to smile so much. She stood at her doorstep and opened the door slowly, it wasn’t time to worry yet. She just got here and she wanted to see what this world was like. Was it another reality. Could this be her new home?, maybe it’s something completely different and she knew nobody here.

She took a step into her hallway. It was the exact same décor just the colours of course were a different shade. She stayed quiet and peeped around downstairs. She spotted her dad lounging on the couch, feet stretched out on the recliner, cup of tea and newspaper in hand as usual. It made her slightly annoyed. Different world and yet her dad still sat on the couch all day just as before doing nothing. She slid across the hall to the kitchen and peeped in to see her mother and baby sister Libby drawing at the table, laughing and giggling with a dinner cooking behind in the oven, just as they usually would. Maybe this world wasn’t so different after all.

Violet tiptoed up the stairs and turned the handle to her bedroom door.                    ‘DAD GO AWAY, I’M STUDYING!’ She jumped back as the door was slammed shut in her face. She jumped back in shock. What. Uh oh. That was her voice. There was already a version of her here. What was she thinking. She wouldn’t be this lucky to get to come to a new world, a better world and expect to just fit into her own place again in the world.

She slid downstairs and back out the door. She ran to the rock and the end of her garden hidden under the shade of a willow tree , she uses to hide behind when she needs to think. She sat in the darkness of the rock and felt odd. Being in the shade instead of being out in the light made her uneasy. She sat there hunched up in her thinking position, arms up holding her head. Maybe this was a good thing that there was already a version of her here. This could be her chance to be fully away from everything and to explore this intriguing new world.  She could start a new life. She began to grin. The only problem was avoiding her family, friends and well…herself.

She snapped her head up when she heard a noise. It was her friend Luna. Luna stood over her staring in shock. ‘WHY ARE YOU IN THE SHADE SMILING! You know that’s against the council rules. If they sense you smiling in a dark place you will be punished!…..and you know how cruel the punishments are getting’. Violet was confused and her smile dropped from her face. She was caught. She made a quick decision  to play along and not let on of what had happened and where she came from. She stood up and stepped over into the light and smiled ‘Yeah, sorry Luna, You’re right. I wasn’t thinking, what was I doing smiling in the dark’.

Luna shrugged and gave her a funny look. ‘Let’s just get to studying’. Violet was relieved she believed her. She didn’t suspect anything weird. Violet lied and excused herself to the bathroom and ran from the house and garden as fast as she could.

She sat at a random bench in a quiet part of the green. She now knew she didn’t want to be part of this world. There was no way she could fit in here. She wouldn’t be able to keep up the act of being happy all the time in light or keep up an act of being down in the dark. She was back to all the curious questions again this time filled with  dread and worry.

Who where the council?. Why can’t I smile in the dark?. Why is their so much light and dark?. What on earth could these punishments be for breaking the rules?. Where was she?. Was this place as good as she hoped it would be?. How was she going to get home?……

 

Here is a random short story. I wrote parts of it before in school for creative writing class and decided to add a bit to it now cause why not.

It was from a writing prompt our teacher gave us ‘It was completely crazy but it still looked like an ordinary world’.

Hope you enjoyed and thanks for reading 🙂

Another random post, just so I do post something.

 

Dear Anxiety.

 

 

Anxiety your such a pest, Constantly lingering inside.
Even though I know in the end everything will be fine
You’re a bubble of worry and doubt , trapped in my mind.
You make me think everything wont turn out fine.
Even left alone with my thoughts you still arise.
It’s scary the control you have over me.
All the things I just can’t do, because of you.
I can’t go to the shop and pay for my food, or answer the door in fear of you.
You stop me from having fun and going places with my friends, because
the stupid pain you cause me never seems to end.
It’s silly, I know.
I want to be a explorer and travel the world.
But how’s that going to happen when I’m scared trapped in my own little world.

Here’s a random poem that isn’t great. I wrote it awhile ago in school for an inspireland class thing. I needed to post something and I am way to lazy to do something new today so here this is 🙂

Conflicted Contradiction.

 

I haven’t blogged in quite awhile. Everything just seems to be going on around me. Everything is just happening so fast. It’s like nothing at all is happening but so much at the same time. It’s like I’m overwhelmed with emotions and things to get done but yet I still find the time to say that I’m bored.

Yeah, I know I just contradicted myself a lot. But ..hey! That’s me a your walking,talking (well writing)  Conflicted Contradiction.

Life sure is weird.

Life itself seems to be passing by way to fast. Like since I began secondary school it always seemed to go by much faster. This year especially. Like so far this year 2015/2016 I have started Transition Year in school. It has been so much fun. I got to go on trips, listen to talks and try new things. I also got to do a lot of fun stuff out of school and spend a lot of the time alone, with friends and family. It’s been pretty great (sure there is pretty damn crappy parts in the midst of it all but there has been a ton of great things). But….It all seems to be going by so fast.

Life changes just as the sky does. Some days the sky feels like it takes years to switch from light to dark. It feels like the day drags by as the sky slowly transforms and shifts from the vibrant orange and yellow skies at dawn to the bright orange,blue,pink and purple shades at dusk. Other times it dashes by in what feels like a blink of an eye. The moments you want to sit down and just take in the day never seem to last as long as you wish.

‘Time flys when your having fun’ couldn’t be more accurate than it is now. I wish this year would slow down and let me enjoy it for longer. (I want the good parts slow down and the bad parts to speed up…well doesn’t everyone really.)

Currently I am 15 years old. I still often say to people I am only 14 because it feels it was just yesterday I was 14 (I still feel like a 10 year old sometimes). It scares me ever so slightly that I’m almost 16. Like I wonder will I still say that I’m 14 when I’m actually 16?. I want to hurry up and grow up and move out,work,travel and do things for myself. I want to be more independent and have more stability and control within/ for myself. Then again I want to stay young and not have to worry about doing things for myself.

I am yet again unsure to why I posted this. I just thought I would since I havn’t posted in a couple of days.

Anybody else feel like this? 🙂

Sorry about the ramblings x

 

 

3 Days, 3 Quotes Challenge!

Today a great man and a marvelous actor passed away. I was shocked to hear the news through my friend on facebook, because I was away on a school trip.

I was surprised when I found out. He passed away at the age of 69 from cancer. Just like the recently passed David Bowie who I was also shocked and saddened by.

My addiction to harry potter recently has become quite strong and clear to my friends and everyone around me. I have been raving on about how I am a proud slytherin and am now a mighty potterhead. Now Alan Rickman the great actor who played Severus Snape has passed away.

He was also in many other movies like Sweeny Todd etc. He truly was a strong snd great actor. His memory will always live on through his works and brilliance.

RIP Alan Rickman. ♡
In memory of Alan todays quote is…

Actors are agents of change.
A film, a piece of theater,
A piece of music, or a book can make a difference.
It can change the world -Alan Rickman

Too many Tabs open.

I decided I want to post something today and since I had no ideas today on what to post, I took out my notebook with random ideas for blog posts in it. I found a quick idea I wrote down ages ago about having too many tabs open at the same time on the laptop.

I assume I wrote it on one of those days where I spend hours upon hours on the internet from am to pm. Endlessly scrolling through every social media I have (Facebook,Instagram,Tumblr,Pinterest,Youtube etc.) having each open in separate tabs and along with that I probably have other tabs open for on-line shop browsing (where I usually buy nothing) and also random Google tabs where I’m searching the most weirdest random stuff that strikes my curiosity. I probably also had a Watchseries tab open loading an episode of one of my many TV shows I love.

I noted how annoying it is having so many tabs open at once. It makes your computer load slower than a turtle and snail racing. I also noted how irritating it is when you go through all your tabs and forget why you had some of them even open.

One of the most frustrating things is for me when I have so many tabs open is forgetting I had a basket made on some sites store. Then when I remember and go back to look what I added ( or if I’m lucky buy the stuff) I realise it’s been emptied because so many sites have a limit to how long you can have your basket open without paying before it empties itself. Which is such a pain.

Actually no the one most annoying and frustrating thing about having so many tabs open is when you hear music or an advert start to play. Like instantly you start to freak out. ‘OH MY GOD I HAVE LIKE A ZILLION TRILLION TABS OPEN! HOW AM I GOING TO FIND THE SOURCE OF THE NOISE?!’ You spend ages clicking through all the tabs scrolling around trying to find the source of the noise that has rudely interrupted you internet experience for the day. When you luckily find it and can easily mute or exit the tab hassle free, your filled with relief but then ….there’s the times where you just can’t find the source through all the tabs. You are left with no choice but to exit …EVERYTHING. Well you could just mute your volume but like then you couldn’t listen to music or watch a show without hearing that pesky add or whatever it is replaying or changing in the background. So you reluctantly close all your tabs in a huff.

I really don’t know why at the time I thought this would even make a blog post but …Hey!, it has 🙂

While writing this I just thought how I also have too many tabs open in my brain. Do ever just have so much going on in your head it feels overwhelming and it’s just all on top of you at the same time. It’s so many different things buzzing about. Sadly there’s no exit buttons to unwanted thoughts and confused emotions. No quick shut-off and solution for that. Awell  😀

still not sure why I wrote this. But hey it was more productive than starting a new TV show….now if you’ll excuse me I better go and finish watch Pinocchio (The k-drama not the Disney movie)…..bye bye productivity.