Conflicted Contradiction.

 

I haven’t blogged in quite awhile. Everything just seems to be going on around me. Everything is just happening so fast. It’s like nothing at all is happening but so much at the same time. It’s like I’m overwhelmed with emotions and things to get done but yet I still find the time to say that I’m bored.

Yeah, I know I just contradicted myself a lot. But ..hey! That’s me a your walking,talking (well writing)  Conflicted Contradiction.

Life sure is weird.

Life itself seems to be passing by way to fast. Like since I began secondary school it always seemed to go by much faster. This year especially. Like so far this year 2015/2016 I have started Transition Year in school. It has been so much fun. I got to go on trips, listen to talks and try new things. I also got to do a lot of fun stuff out of school and spend a lot of the time alone, with friends and family. It’s been pretty great (sure there is pretty damn crappy parts in the midst of it all but there has been a ton of great things). But….It all seems to be going by so fast.

Life changes just as the sky does. Some days the sky feels like it takes years to switch from light to dark. It feels like the day drags by as the sky slowly transforms and shifts from the vibrant orange and yellow skies at dawn to the bright orange,blue,pink and purple shades at dusk. Other times it dashes by in what feels like a blink of an eye. The moments you want to sit down and just take in the day never seem to last as long as you wish.

‘Time flys when your having fun’ couldn’t be more accurate than it is now. I wish this year would slow down and let me enjoy it for longer. (I want the good parts slow down and the bad parts to speed up…well doesn’t everyone really.)

Currently I am 15 years old. I still often say to people I am only 14 because it feels it was just yesterday I was 14 (I still feel like a 10 year old sometimes). It scares me ever so slightly that I’m almost 16. Like I wonder will I still say that I’m 14 when I’m actually 16?. I want to hurry up and grow up and move out,work,travel and do things for myself. I want to be more independent and have more stability and control within/ for myself. Then again I want to stay young and not have to worry about doing things for myself.

I am yet again unsure to why I posted this. I just thought I would since I havn’t posted in a couple of days.

Anybody else feel like this? 🙂

Sorry about the ramblings x

 

 

3 Days, 3 Quotes Challenge!

Today a great man and a marvelous actor passed away. I was shocked to hear the news through my friend on facebook, because I was away on a school trip.

I was surprised when I found out. He passed away at the age of 69 from cancer. Just like the recently passed David Bowie who I was also shocked and saddened by.

My addiction to harry potter recently has become quite strong and clear to my friends and everyone around me. I have been raving on about how I am a proud slytherin and am now a mighty potterhead. Now Alan Rickman the great actor who played Severus Snape has passed away.

He was also in many other movies like Sweeny Todd etc. He truly was a strong snd great actor. His memory will always live on through his works and brilliance.

RIP Alan Rickman. ♡
In memory of Alan todays quote is…

Actors are agents of change.
A film, a piece of theater,
A piece of music, or a book can make a difference.
It can change the world -Alan Rickman

3 Days, 3 Quotes Challenge!

 

I surprisingly remembered to do this again today. If it wasn’t for my complete boredom during a class today I wouldn’t of remembered.

My quote for today is….

One persons craziness is another persons reality. -Tim Burton.

I choose this quote because I truly love Tim Burton and all his wonderful creations. He is a true genius and artist. His creativeness and personality inspires me in so many ways.

I like to think that something I see as absolutely crazy or out of the ordinary is another persons everyday reality. They could be doing things on a daily  basis that to me would be unusual but to them it is completely normal. Or even vice versa. Some complete stranger could examine the things I do and find them crazy and weird.

Also I find it fascinating the point that someone could be doing and  balancing so many things everyday and  can deal well and find it normal and not stressful at all… but to  another person it could be the most hectic and stressful thing and it could seem crazy to them that one can handle all this.

Then there’s peoples views on things when it comes to art. One person can look at a movie,show,painting,story etc and find it crazy and weird and pointless and to someone else it could be the most touching and fascinating thing they have ever laid eyes upon.

I kind of got distracted while doing this post. I am currently fighting the side of slytherin yet again against my friend from school. Harry Potter seems to be a serious addiction of mine lately, only after finishing the series the other day (movies not books sorry.)

What houses are you all in? ❤

3 Days, 3 Quotes Challenge!

 

I haven’t blogged in awhile. I have been procrastinating. I can’t say I have been busy I’ve just been lazy and uninspired….But I have been nominated for a couple of awards. So I’m just going to do them now before months pass. 🙂

The lovely EM FM has nominated me for this challenge!. I am pretty excited for this challenge because I adore quotes. They are the words I need when I can’t form sentences for myself. They explain how I’m feeling when I don’t even know how to describe it myself.

I have so many quotes I love but for the sake of this challenge I’m going to post not necessarily my favourite quotes but some ones I love.

The rules are:

• Post 3 Quotes on 3 consecutive days.
• Thank the person who nominated you.
• Nominate 3 other bloggers on each day of challenge.

“All art is unstable. Its meaning is not necessarily that implied by the author. There is no authoritative voice. There are only multiple readings.” -David Bowie.

 

I would also like to say rest in peace to David Bowie and true legend and hero. ❤

I nominate:

• paperclipsandpins
• thoughtsbysamblog
• theworldaccordingtoanintrovert 🙂 check out all their blogs!

 

Hopefully I remember to post and can find good quotes each day 🙂

 

Too many Tabs open.

I decided I want to post something today and since I had no ideas today on what to post, I took out my notebook with random ideas for blog posts in it. I found a quick idea I wrote down ages ago about having too many tabs open at the same time on the laptop.

I assume I wrote it on one of those days where I spend hours upon hours on the internet from am to pm. Endlessly scrolling through every social media I have (Facebook,Instagram,Tumblr,Pinterest,Youtube etc.) having each open in separate tabs and along with that I probably have other tabs open for on-line shop browsing (where I usually buy nothing) and also random Google tabs where I’m searching the most weirdest random stuff that strikes my curiosity. I probably also had a Watchseries tab open loading an episode of one of my many TV shows I love.

I noted how annoying it is having so many tabs open at once. It makes your computer load slower than a turtle and snail racing. I also noted how irritating it is when you go through all your tabs and forget why you had some of them even open.

One of the most frustrating things is for me when I have so many tabs open is forgetting I had a basket made on some sites store. Then when I remember and go back to look what I added ( or if I’m lucky buy the stuff) I realise it’s been emptied because so many sites have a limit to how long you can have your basket open without paying before it empties itself. Which is such a pain.

Actually no the one most annoying and frustrating thing about having so many tabs open is when you hear music or an advert start to play. Like instantly you start to freak out. ‘OH MY GOD I HAVE LIKE A ZILLION TRILLION TABS OPEN! HOW AM I GOING TO FIND THE SOURCE OF THE NOISE?!’ You spend ages clicking through all the tabs scrolling around trying to find the source of the noise that has rudely interrupted you internet experience for the day. When you luckily find it and can easily mute or exit the tab hassle free, your filled with relief but then ….there’s the times where you just can’t find the source through all the tabs. You are left with no choice but to exit …EVERYTHING. Well you could just mute your volume but like then you couldn’t listen to music or watch a show without hearing that pesky add or whatever it is replaying or changing in the background. So you reluctantly close all your tabs in a huff.

I really don’t know why at the time I thought this would even make a blog post but …Hey!, it has 🙂

While writing this I just thought how I also have too many tabs open in my brain. Do ever just have so much going on in your head it feels overwhelming and it’s just all on top of you at the same time. It’s so many different things buzzing about. Sadly there’s no exit buttons to unwanted thoughts and confused emotions. No quick shut-off and solution for that. Awell  😀

still not sure why I wrote this. But hey it was more productive than starting a new TV show….now if you’ll excuse me I better go and finish watch Pinocchio (The k-drama not the Disney movie)…..bye bye productivity.

Do I Like The Idea Of New Year Resolutions?

I don’t even know if I entirely like the concept of new years resolutions?. I like the idea of resolutions, but I’m not entirely sure if I like the concept of ‘New Year Resolutions’.

Like why does it always have to be the end of year when we decided to make a resolution for the better?. Why don’t we decide mid year that we want to make a change for ourselves. Why do  we always seem to wait until the end of the year.

Yes, I know not everyone does take on New Year resolutions. I do though. I always have. I never really wondered why I only take them on at the end of each year. Why have I never decided to take up June resolutions? 🙂 Why only at New Years.

It quite annoying to think about to be honest. I can’t find a definite answer for myself.

Another annoying thing is that again this year I’m going to set more for myself 😀

Usually mine are never fully completed. Last year, if I’m honest I can’t remember what they were. (I think one was to read 50 books…haha that was a fail) Maybe I will even forget these ones.

Maybe this year ..just maybe I can actually complete my resolutions and remember them.

 

So here they are 🙂

• Keep blogging and Journalling.
• Get healthier (Eat healthier and attempt exercise)
• Don’t let my anxiety get the better of me. Don’t let it stop me from going places.
• Go more out of my comfort zone.
• Read 30 books. (Maybe write them down as I go? Maybe do book reviews?)
• Have fun and stay Hopeful.

 

 

 

Yup. That is another post about New Year Resolutions.

I apologise.

What are yours if you have some?

Best wishes for 2016. x