Reverie and then a sudden change of light.

It’s quite an unusual feeling when your sitting blissfully in a state of reverie and suddenly something just changes.

Reverie is transient and so bittersweet.

I keep noticing far to much lately the irksome moments that pull me from my state of reverie. I will be sitting in class, just mindlessly learning and then a change of light happens.

The mood will change. The room will feel darker and less idyllic. Just because of a sudden change in light.

Just because the blinds have moved slightly because of the wind, or a clouds covered the sun.

Nobody says anything or acts differently.

The light has just change and the calming moods just gone.

Everything feels wrong and disorderly.

The light from outside will cast shadows on someones face or a surface differently. It makes me feel uncomfortable because I felt so relaxed previously.

I’m deceived into thinking its a change in person or moment. It isn’t …it’s just how the light has changed.

I am left wondering and anticipating if the moment will change. Does anyone else notice the change of mood. Will it effect others as much as it is effecting me?

Will anything happen differently than it would of happened seconds before the light changed?

 

Has anyone ever felt anything like this?

It’s weird to think something as small as a change in light can effect my brain so much. 😀  ❤

I honestly have no idea what this is. A thought?  A rambling feeling?  A story?

I don’t know but I wrote something because what else have I to do right now.

 

 

 

Dear Trust.

Dear Trust…

Your both a wonderful and deadly thing.
You take so much time to build up.
Yet you take so little time to break down.

You can disapear in the blink of an eye but you leave behind a open wound.
You frighten and excite me both at the same time.

You make friendships and yet you break them too.
You break walls and open hearts.

Your dangerous.
If your opened up go the wrong person you can break a heart and ruin a memory.

You build a rising fear inside my chest, leaving me in constant wonder who deserves to get you.

Sometimes I wish you would hurry up and open up, simply whenever I wish.
Other times I am glad you stayed strong and contained.
You have saved me from a lot of pain.

You keep me strong and let me fall.
Both good and bad.

Always keeping me on my toes.
Building barriers high.
I wonder who I can really let have you.
Your mean a lot to me, but I hate the way you can easily hurt me.

Musical Moments ♡

Okay, so I do this odd thing and I was wondering if anyone else does it too :”)  ..well I do a lot of unusual things but this just springs to mind right now.

Am I the only one who thinks of random songs in their head at random moments  in time. Like it could the most boring or exciting moment and suddenly its like a musical moment. In your head you imagine a backing track or something like that, that makes the moment musical?😂

It’s sort of like turning life into a movie montage in a unusual way. Like you imagine a moment in time the same as it is, just with a bit of music playing in your mind.

Yeah, wow I think I may be crazy. I am probally the only human that does this.

Also when someone says something that reminds you of a song. Like they could accidentally say something and it might sound slightly like a lyric from a song and it makes the song stuck in your head. (Like someone deciding they want to have a lazy day makes me instantly think of bruno mars lazy song).

Or even just things and stuff you see makes you think of a song. Like the sound of the rain ( I think of doddleoddles song rain) or the sound of diggers and machinery ( I think of bob the builder theme song). Just random little weird things like that.

Oh and another musical moment trigger for me is looking at a photo. For exsample the photo atatched to this post is a photo I took when I went on a school trip to Killary. It’s during the 20k hike we did as part of our Gaisce challenge. Looking back at it now I can’t help but think of the proclaimers song 500 miles 😂.

I’m not sure but in the moment I was possibly thinking of the rocky theme song because I was trying to make myself keep going and not give up ….or my mind was just blank from exhaustion.

Yeah so that’s that.
A weird as heck insight to the many happenings in my mind.
What’s your fav songs? Have you any moments like this☺😂

Horoscopes accuracy.

Horoscopes and how accurate they are have always intrigued me. A lot of people judge another persons character depending on the astrology sign. I am guilty in some cases but I do think they can me wrong.

Personally I am a Libra and I have had many the completely inaccurate horoscope. Then again I have had a scary accurate reading also. Each sign has said to have their own traits both good and bad. Some may match up perfectly to you but they also may be the complete opposite, but a lot of the time we have to admit it’s possible the signs traits can be true but we refuse to admit it.

Libras are said to be Diplomatic Graceful, Peaceful, Idealistic, Hospitable people but there also said to be Superficial, Vain, Indecisive and Unreliable people. Personally I agree with my Air sign as a Libra. I have a tendency to be all those things. All depending on the day and my mood.

Libras are said to be at their best when with people and work well with other people and are said to be good communicators and overall confident but to me that is really the opposite I find it awkward and uncomfortable a lot of the time with others and I personally like being alone. I do like being in other people’s company but I can be perfectly happy alone too.

They can be independent, they have the intelligence and the full capability within but would a Libra rather co-exist/depend on others which I find in my case true cause I can be lazy like my sign reminds me.

‘Libras love excitement, new situations, adventure and the unusual. They make friends with people from all walks of life and they are always up to something new and exciting with enthusiasm. Libras are great at getting along with people, everyone likes a Libra’. I agree that Myself as a libra wants these things and wants adventure but despite wanting it, it isn’t necessarily accurate, I often am stopped by anxiety when it comes to adventure and talking and getting along with new people. I am different and yet I get along with people I also have different opinions and like a lot of different things to others. Not everyone would like me as a Libra. (Oh and I do love unusual stuffs.)

Libras are not always the confident social butterflies they are said to be. Libras are said to be the glue that holds friendships and groups together but not necessarily because my opinions tend to differ a lot and that doesn’t always turn out well in group situations.

Libras are said to open minded and it is said that nobody can meet another person’s point of view better than a libra which I agree with completely, despite having different views and opinions I am open minded and up for meeting everyone’s point of views.

Libras are said to be lazy when it comes to hands on stuff and I do agree when it comes to a lot of sports and physical exercise but I do not agree when it comes to business and creative projects. I love to do hands on creative stuff , even though I may not be the best at art.

Libras are said to best at idea making and creativity but not necessarily carrying out the work and struggles of it. We are said to not be able to do work even if we set our minds to it but I can and have been able to do so.

Libras are said to be very self centered which I must agree to slightly but I do definitely care for others…a lot…sometimes I fell maybe a bit too much. I think everyone should be respected and treated fair and I would fight for anyone not just myself which people tend to think Libras wouldn’t do.

We are said to not want anything bad enough to fight for it, but we will and can and there is a lot of things I personally would fight for, for everyone, not just myself.

They are also likely to hide or bend their own true feelings in order to bring peace with a group and to make others like them. Sometime this results in them not really knowing what their true feelings are because they are trying to make everyone happy. Other people can see this and Libras have earned themselves a reputation for being indecisive, they simply do not want to hurt anyone’s feelings or cause disorder or friction in a situation, which I agree with. This spills over inside the person and many times, Libras have difficulty making decisions.

Inside, the Libra is very insecure, they suffer from a lack of self confidence, they are always searching for something to complete them. This is said to be why they are social butterflies as they are said to be trying to find their missing piece through others but I disagree that personally makes me the opposite of a social butterfly.  

Libras don’t really know who they are inside. Libras are said to desperately need love and approval which I agree, they will do the favors that people ask and and have a hard time saying ‘no’ or ‘I’m too busy’ in order to prove how nice they are, this gradually builds up resentment and negative self esteem issues inside. Which I agree with in a way.

Libra’s indecisiveness is said to be caused by fear, their fear that a wrong decision will make everything come crashing down around them and cause turmoil in their lives which I also agree with this a lot…I personally fear the future and the unexspected.

Life is not like that and it is said that once a Libra acknowledges the fact that life has ups and downs they will be less emotionally wound up, not so hard on themselves and as a result, they will be a much happier person. I agree with this also. I think this applies to anyone though no matter their sign.

What’s your sign?
Is it accurate for you?

Carousel.

Spinning merrily round and round.
Joyus smiles fill a dreary town.
Kids grin wide flashing,snowy whites.
The time escapes into the exciting night.

Up and down on the carousel poles.
When will it stop nobody knows.
The children keep spinning as the parents cameras flash.
When does this carousel stop?,nobodys thought to ask.

Its been some time now.
The twinkly lights are just too bright.
That melodic tune is becoming overused.
I think it should stop before my eardrums pop.
When will it stop and let the kids off.

We wait some more for the ride to stop.
The horses keep floating without their hooves going clop.
It’s a magic ride, because the kids grins are still stretching wide.
Although the parents eyes are becoming tired.
The youngesters smiles are only getting wider.

This needs to stop.
It has to stop now.
This is becoming creepy.
The childrens giggles, oh wow.

There stuck in a trance.
It still hasn’t stopped.
The other parents now seem to be lost.
They stare on, cameras still flashing.
There eyes staring passed, a sense of what’s going on is what there lacking.

How come I’m not lost in the trance.
I better act quick,before the carousel owners click.
I jump onto the spinning machine.
The lights growing brighter the machine starts to steam.
Its spinning faster and faster, this is wicked and mean.

Im trapped, what now.
My feet seem to be glued.
The machines moving faster and yet I can’t move.
The machine slows down.
I look around.

There isn’t a single sound in the town.
The children hop of.
The parents have dissapeared.
The town is’nt the same now.
It’s darker. It’s weird.

Here you go, a silly,crappy boring poem I wrote just now out of boredom and tiredness. This is my photo.
It’s a pretty pointless poem that makes no sense. This is my  6/7am brain ramblings.

What Lies In Louis Cole’s Dreads?.

Louis Cole is a British Film-maker and YouTube Video blogger (A vlogger).

He is well known for his magnificent dreadlocks. He started off on YouTube with his channel  ‘FoodForLouis’. He would eat animals and strange unusual things. He has now taken down his videos and now posts on his channel ‘FunForLouis’. Where he encourages viewers to “Peace out, enjoy life and live the adventure”. He travels around the world to many different places all over the world. He video blogs (vlogs) his adventures along the way.

All the places he has been and all the amazing things he as done makes me wonder. What could be caught up in his dreadlocks. He went from living at home with his parents to living in a homeless squat. There he made some great friends and went to live with them all in a rented house. They had a house where they had a room full of plastic balls, a huge ball pit in their house!(Like how awesome would that be). For his twenty first birthday he decided to buy a minibus and drive around Europe with 8 of his good friends. This was the trip that started his love for adventure.

He then went on to buy a double decker school bus. He revamped it with his two friends who where kicked out of their homes.  They named it the Boom Bus. They went on many adventures with this bus. They had a lot of fun and met a lot of new people along the way. They ran projects on the bus to fund it and keep it going. They would have bus parties on the weekends to fund it also. People would come on to the bus and they would have an amazing sounds system and it would be a brilliant party.

Louis’s popularity grew and he began to go on bigger and wilder adventures to other places all around the globe with all the new friends he made. He and his dreadlocks are quite travelled.

He is on a life long  journey to have as many adventures as possible. He is constantly heading somewhere else. He has been to so many places India, Canada, Los Angeles, Japan, Egypt, Uganda, Australia, New Zealand, Kenya, Eastern Europe and all over America. He has been all over the world. He is still travelling all over the world on a daily basis.

The amount of tiny particles and dirt that are possibly collected in his dreads is unlimited. There could be sand from exploring the pyramids in Egypt, paint chips from museums he has went to, dirt from trees he has climbed in many countries, sand and salt-water from the seas and oceans he has swam in.

There is a lot of murky water from the many hot-tubs he has been in.(Louis Loves his hot tub times dearly.) There is most likely Dirt and dust from beautiful places like Japan and New York. Mud and Muck from woodlands and forests he’s explored all over the globe. The amount of things that could be trapped inside his long dreadlocks is fascinating. If only we knew what really lies in the depths of Louis’ dreads. 

Oh and of course this photo isn’t mine, though I’d of love to of taken it myself  (like if I had the chance to meet Louis and take his photo,I would die from fangirling) aha:)

Reuse.

Amongst my blogs you will probally notice something. I tend to reuse stuff alot.

When I say this you probally think something like “oh she’s one of those enviromental lovers.” Nope. I don’t mean it like that.

I reuse alot of my posts. I could post something I wrote for an english class one day, or I could make up a poem on the spot or I could just rant whatevers on my mind. (Like right now).

I will also tend to reuse stuff and ideas I have read and heard somewere before. I will most likely use some creative writing prompts from pinterest or somewere else on the interweb.

I could use concepts I have taken from other blogs,posts or conversations I’ve had and make them my own.

So in that way I reuse alot. I reuse old idea and make them into something new or just keep them as they are.

In saying all that don’t get the idea in your head that I hate the enviroment,  cause I don’t. I try and reuse and help the enviroment to aha.

Blogging Noob.

I’m an incredible blogging noob. Like I have no idea what I’m doing. I’m randomly clicking onto blogs and following them I think. I’m not even sure if iv’e followed the ones I’ve liked a lot.

Like my photo I feel like a jellyfish lost in an aquarium. When in reality this is all a lot bigger than an aquarium. It like a huge ocean. There so many amazing blogs. It’s kind of scary how relate able they are. This is why I like the internet so much. You can always find someone to relate to. Blogging seems cool so far but it is pretty scary. I have noticed a lot of people have anonymous blogs. I probably should of done that. Maybe I will. Guess I’ll see what happens.

So yeah, I am a noob. I do realise that. I need to get the hang of wordpress and its works.

Oh and also all the photos I have posted so far have been my own. I am going to try use my own photos as much as I can. When its not mine I’ll try my best to give credit or let it be known it isn’t my photo.

Is It To Late To Go Anon?…

I don’t know whether or not I  should have made this blog anonymous. Like I have reasons why I should of made it anonymous  and reasons I need it not to be. On one hand maybe it’s a good thing that this is out in the open. Like I did say in my first post that I am weird and I have to learn to entirely embrace it I guess?

Like this is sort of an in the open diary?, If I let it be. (Beatles song starts playing in my head), see stuff like that would make it like a diary. I do keep a diary but of course me being your average lazy teenager I keep writing less and less. I have started using technology more so than pen to paper. Writing each night gets tiring especially when I’ve had school or something on that just drained me. I don’t write enough of what I want to write.

I have so many Opinions on so many different things. I’m an opinionated person but I can be forgetful. My Minds constantly running with different ideas, thinking ”Oh I will write about this later” then when it comes to it I will forget as the pens in my hand…But ill remember a few minutes later with my phone in hand.

There is a lot of stuff I want to write about. I want to be able to write about ANYTHING I want. I just don’t feel entirely comfortable doing it. Like if anybody I knew in person read the blogs I want to post, I’d feel so uncomfortable.

Struggles of being a awkward, weird teen xD

Reasons I want to go Anon:

1. I don’t feel entirely comfortable writing about anything I like.
2. I am to scared to be judged by people in real life.
3. I know how much embarrassment this blogs going to bring.
4. Its easy to rant and regret using technology.

Reasons I need to stay Public:

1. I need to face my fears more.
2. maybe in the future I can become a journalist?
3. I need to express my opinions out loud more?

Dear Spelling and Grammar Police.

Dear spelling and grammar police.

I’m going to apologise in advance.

Many of the posts I submit here will contain horrible spelling and terribly bad grammar.

I am shockingly bad at correcting myself for spelling and grammar mistakes.

I’m not entirely sure how many mistakes I’ve made already in this post alone but there are most likely some.

So fair warning.

I suk @ splling nd grammer butt I try sumtimes.

So Uhhhhh, here is a crappy little poem I decided to make.

Spelling and grammar police.

Boy are you in for a treat.

I guess it time to kick back you feet.

Because this blog is far from neat.

You can make endless amounts of modifications to this site

But I’ll probably never get my grammar right.

My spelling will always be distressing.

So you’ll have endless mistakes to be addressing.

I’m sorry, I’m such a pest. 

Maybe one day I can ace a spelling and grammar test.